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[adrienmundi]

There is something going on inside of me lately that I just don't understand. I'm more irritable, it seems, and at times I feel like I'm downright selfish (in thought, not in implementation). Sometimes it feels like I'm just faking, pretending enough so as not to raise alarm flags, but if that's the case, if what's going on is fake, then what's un-fake? There are moments in which I feel something dangerously close to the adolescent feelings of frustration-impatience-nihlism-temper; I'd rather not have to do that again, please.

Read my mind, and please tell me what the fuck is going on.
Thank you.

Comments

[http://users.livejournal.com/_amaranthe_/]

Well, you've been taking hormonal type supplements so perhaps you are, on some level, going through some sort of puberty. Or perhaps you're feeling what it's like to be 'hormonal' without the unpleasant monthly results.

[adrienmundi]

I'd be surprised if it was a puberty thing; I would've thought that would have happened sooner in the process, not more than a year later. I'm much better today, so hopefully it was a short lived moodiness.

[skiadaimonos.livejournal.com]

stab stab stab... lessee...

the hormones thing may have something to do with it. Given that you are both estrogeny in the brady house, it may well be that you synchronize at least a little.

Or

you are just in a bad(ish) mood (even though you may not like being in bad moods--if the brain extends to this as well, I get bad/selfish/self-righteous/whatever moods, and feel both justified and terribly annoyed at myself for them) and this is just another of those 'human' things where the best thing to do is say 'i am in a bad mood' but seek neither to find further meaning in it (may be that some things are bugging you-- these may be tweaked with but the mood itself is not at all useful/productive), nor overchastize yourself or overindulge (which seems rather unlikely for you and the fairy anyways).

and

unrelatedly

need to find some time with you

[adrienmundi]

Could well be any number of those things; sudden and seemingly inexplicable irritability/negativity came up quite suddenly last night, but seems to have faded today.

And, timing being what it is, I'm free all day if you've a spare moment or two.