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One team member on vacation today, one mysteriously "sick" the first day of some big basketball thing, and another coming in late due to family issues leaves just me on a day when we're converting about 60 users' email to a different server. I think I'm choosing to take this as a sign of confidence in me, that I can do it on my own.
Mar. 16th, 2006
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Mar. 16th, 2006 02:14 pmSaturday there will be twelve full hours of sunlight, even though the equinox isn't supposed to be until Monday. I plan to celebrate both days :)
There's a hole by the bench I sit on every day that I finally figured out was where some crazed, hyperactive dog insists on digging, just to dig. There are other, smaller hole, but this one in particular seems to hold canine interest. I'm not sure why, but the idea of random holes in a place I really enjoy and like bothers me. Increasingly over time, I've started kicking the dirt back into the hole. Tuesday, I started filling it with fallen sticks, and then kicking the dirt and leaves over it. I'm pleased with myself; I could see today that this addition has limited the damage the dog did overnight.
I think my sense of self is much too dependent on ideas, roles, histories and interactions forced upon me. I want to reconsider all of this, to melt away and reforge. I used to be afraid that if I began discarding things, I'd get to the bottom and find nothing there. I still don't believe in a soul, or a unitary personality, but I do note pragmatically that if there's something doing the work of evaluation and throwing away, it's definitely not nothing. I want to know who I am in relation to myself, and I'm not sure I do, yet.
There's a hole by the bench I sit on every day that I finally figured out was where some crazed, hyperactive dog insists on digging, just to dig. There are other, smaller hole, but this one in particular seems to hold canine interest. I'm not sure why, but the idea of random holes in a place I really enjoy and like bothers me. Increasingly over time, I've started kicking the dirt back into the hole. Tuesday, I started filling it with fallen sticks, and then kicking the dirt and leaves over it. I'm pleased with myself; I could see today that this addition has limited the damage the dog did overnight.
I think my sense of self is much too dependent on ideas, roles, histories and interactions forced upon me. I want to reconsider all of this, to melt away and reforge. I used to be afraid that if I began discarding things, I'd get to the bottom and find nothing there. I still don't believe in a soul, or a unitary personality, but I do note pragmatically that if there's something doing the work of evaluation and throwing away, it's definitely not nothing. I want to know who I am in relation to myself, and I'm not sure I do, yet.
fuck yeah!
Mar. 16th, 2006 02:44 pm(from Free Will Astology)
TAURUS (April 20–May 20): I predict that animals will be especially attracted to you in the coming days. The light of the sun will seem to possess an uncanny fluidity and sparkle. You may experience vivid fantasies like seeing a talking cat in a tree or hearing advice coming from a soap dispenser. Strangers may gaze at you for no apparent reason, and even your friends will have unusual feelings for you. You may be reunited with precious memories that have been lost to you for a long time. In the consciousness industry, we call this natural magic time.
TAURUS (April 20–May 20): I predict that animals will be especially attracted to you in the coming days. The light of the sun will seem to possess an uncanny fluidity and sparkle. You may experience vivid fantasies like seeing a talking cat in a tree or hearing advice coming from a soap dispenser. Strangers may gaze at you for no apparent reason, and even your friends will have unusual feelings for you. You may be reunited with precious memories that have been lost to you for a long time. In the consciousness industry, we call this natural magic time.